that old song and dance.

it’s strange how some songs can make your stomach spin or your heart jump into your throat, how just hearing the first note brings back everything you thought you stopped feeling, a familiarity for something you didn’t realize you still longed for.
it can change a mood instantly, it can turn the curve of the corners of your mouth up or down depending on which memory comes to mind first.
and sometimes the sound can make you feel like you’re drowning as it plays on, and you start to sink deeper and deeper in it as the beat as it gets louder and louder, so loud you can’t even hear your heart.

but sometimes it makes you want to dance between the words and surround yourself in its warmth and blanket yourself with its metaphors and similes that only you can understand.

it seems like there’s always that one song that does this to you, no matter how new or how old, it overcomes you and overwhelms you and all you can do is let it swallow you whole.

thank you.

"i like to hear the highway sounds.

and I don't think i'll ever settle down

got a little wild streak in my heart

got a little threadbare gypsy soul"

 [pat green. threadbare gypsy soul]

98 and 6 degrees of separation.

"the way to my heart?

 just be different.

 am i lonely?

on such a fundamental level it’s ridiculous.

i’m dying from the inside out

and only music is my savior.

and the more i hurt,
the more you sing along -

so beg or choose, but pick one."

- john mayer

major.

girl crush.

hayley williams.paramore.

today.

1. The Walkmen - Postcards from Tiny Islands

2. Dead Man’s Bones - Dead Man’s Bones
3. Deerhunter - Never Stops
4. Logos - Walkabout
5. Bear in Heaven - Lovesick Teenagers
6. Wild Beasts - All the King’s Men
7. Nirvana - Lake of Fire
8. The Smiles and Frowns - the Echoes of Time
9. Little Dragon - Twice
10. Horse Feathers - Finch on Saturday
11. Johnny Cash - The Man Comes Around
12. Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros - 40 Day Dream
13. Devendra Banhart - Goin Back
14. Beach House - D.A.R.L.I.N.G
15. Dead Man’s Bones - My Body’s a Zombie For You

and from your lips she drew the hallelujah.

if you know my heart
you know it's engulfed in music.
naturally, i have a lists of songs that have changed my life.

leonard cohen: hallelujah
is first.

this song has layers of meaning.
it has over 15 verses, only a few are used in the original.
he performs a different version at every concert.
this song is alluring.
bottomless mystery pours out of it.

it begins as a love song to music itself.
its first verse describes the song’s chord pattern.
the type of progression that might have been sung at high mass.
on the most sacred occasions.

biblical allusions pile up:
david plays his harp to soothe king saul,
and then has an affair with bathsheba.
at the end of the second verse, lyrics become twisted:
a reference to samson and delilah.
and intimations of sadomasochism and death:

“she tied you

to a kitchen chair

she broke your throne,

she cut your hair

and from your lips she drew the hallelujah.”

this song about
 sex, temptation, adultery and religion spirals inward.
it becomes a meditation on the meaning--
or perhaps the meaninglessness--
of life.
the shout of devotion morphs into an ecstatic cry.
then a defeated moan.
the interjection that means “praise ye the lord” turns hollow.
in the end, “it’s a cold and it’s a broken hallelujah.”

“maybe there’s a god above

and all I ever learned from love

was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you.”

the narrative explores how the..
erotic becomes political,
how relationships are defined.
not by trust but by conquest,
 and how lovers become trophies to be discarded.
and, somehow, the survivors hope it will be different next time.
the broken hallelujah is life itself.

haunt me.

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this...
left me speechless.
is the second best version of my favorite song i've ever listened to.
song is so unbelievably haunting.
is the best performance justin has ever given.
made me fall in love with matt morris.
left me with mascara stained cheeks. and chill bumps.

if you aren't moved by this, your heart has no connection to music.
and for that i feel truly sorry for you.
if you can't feel intense passion pouring out, your heart has no connection to music.
and for that i feel truly sorry for you.
if this performance does not leave your heart connected to music,
i will give you half of mine.

because there is no doubt in my mind these two musicians
were born with headphones attached to their hearts.

heart strings.

coachella could possibly be my boyfriend. he just.. gets me.

i'm tempted to hitch hike to california.

hey, if the hippies made it to woodstock,

i can make it to coachella.

mr. sweet and awful.

"how can someone so inconsistent

mess up so consistently?"

[modest mouse.]

you always say exactly what i need to hear.

"anything other than yes is no.

anything other than stay is go.
anything less than i love you is lying."

vivere senza rimpianti.

"and i told you to be patient.
and i told you to be fine.
and i told you to be balanced.
and i told you to be kind.

and now all your love is wasted.
and who the hell was i?
i'm breaking all your bridges.
and at the end of all your lines."

let it be me.

no matter what happens now

you shouldn't be afraid.

because i know today

has been the most perfect day i've ever seen.

-radiohead[videotape]

heaven.

and my infatuation grows.

dear justin vernon,

it's quite possible sleep & i would become the best of friends again if you came in my room every night and serenaded me with your song of choice.

{but preferably every song from for emma, forever ago.}

oh. p.s. feel free to bring the rest of bon iver.

obsession.

for those that don't know {however. i don't know how you could possibly not know.}

i have a massive astronomical obsession with miley.

yep.. we're on a first name basis.
{and don't even bother making fun of me, talking shit about her, or anything that falls under the negative category. it goes in one ear and out the other.}

 i could give you an extensive list of reasons why but maybe you should just watch this video from her new tour.

it reinforces #1: she's a badass.

oh and if you want to see the rest of the concert

{you're reading my blog.what else do you have to do?}

go here.. i heart miley.

trust me.. it really is entertaining. and not just because i want to be her.

skinny love.

fun fact: i end my night with these two songs.

{sometimes i hit repeat}

bon iver{skinny love}

pat monahan{always midnight}

p.s.  if you want to hear more of bon iver here ya go:

re:stacks.

the wolves(acti&ii).

blindsided.

lump sum.

flume.

for emma.

speechless.

truly unbelievable.

when i have grey hair, my best friends will be...

these people.

and more than likely this is what we'll be doing:

FYI: sigur ros' lyrics are in icelandic.

pretty amazing song even if you can't understand a single word, huh?

so true. so true.

i heart.

stars collide and the air's alive.

my thoughts have gotten way too fast [and/or scrambled] for my pen to follow in my journal so I'm resorting to typing and then copying into my journal later.. we'll see how long this lasts. I've kept a journal since I was 12 and I have about 10 total, some finished and some half finished. Bet you didn't know I keep a journal, huh?
there are so many things that so many people don't know about me.

+i gain truth from documentaries.

+sleeping in is my best friend but the sunrise fascinates me.
+if i could trade lives with anyone it would be with pattie boyd the day eric clapton & george harrison guitar battled for her affections.
+if my house was burning i'd save my blankets & my journals.
+i hate toe prints on the inside of my windshield but i can not bring myself to wash them because they bear silent memories of my road trip to nashville with molly. i still look at those toe prints and laugh.
+i wish life was set to music. my playlist would be rather amazing.
+i make up stories in my head to help me fall asleep. it's like telling myself a bedtime story.
+my nephew is beyond amazing. hearing him say "i love you syd" makes my heart melt.
+nashville & honduras have my heart.amazing what a place will make you feel like.
+i long for more heart to hearts with beth.

i have no intentions of following society's "rules" but i'm forced to.

i want to change the world... but reality continues to slap me in the face.
listening to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D6IpOmw6Bwg