in repair.

i have you, but i don't want you. but only sometimes. i don't have you, but i want you. i'm the most independently dependent person ever. one second i'm clingy. the next i don't want you around. i have my own friends, but i want to meet all of yours. i always get my feelings hurt, but i'm tough as nails. i just want to be needed. i will be in control and fix everything. i cry alot and secretly long to have kids, but i want to run away to a big city and start this whole thing called life over all by myself. i want you there. i want you to wipe away my tears. i don't ever want you to see me cry. i've got this. i'll make my own money and buy everything myself. take me out to dinner and treat me nice. just hold me for a while. not too tight.

i say yes, but i mean no.

and i say no, but i mean yes.