worth it.

i'm not a patient person. i want everything.
i don't want anything.
but when i do find something i want, i find a way to get it.
i can play by the rules,
but i've been known to bend them from time to time
when it counts.
it's a way of saying
i did not come here to lose.

i brush my teeth when i'm upset.
i have too many moleskines i will never fill up.
i can't hide a smile.
i'm never hungry.
i giggle and i'm goofy.

this might not be pretty, and it might be a bumpy start.
but my roads are always paved with good intentions.
and i have to find a way to fight, to beat the odds
to prove i'm worth it.

i am learning to
quiet my thoughts.
be in the moment, not analyzing the moment.
find the wavelengths, and sync mine to yours.

but you have to attempt what i cannot conquer..
patience.